In 2010 I moved to New York dreaming of being a Broadway actor.
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Four years later, and I find my...
When Life Gives You Lemons... Make Orange Juice.
May 12, 2014
Greg Redlawsk -
So we're starting out, making this film, and I guess I'm blogging about it. I've never been a great blogger, most of the time it's be...
When I Close My Eyes I Smell Fresh Mountain Air
May 6, 2014
Greg Redlawsk -
It’s all well and good to have ideals. To have a point of view, a perspective to get across. It’s important to understand your why.
May 17, 2014
June 1, 2014
Greg Redlawsk -
So, I just want to take this moment to discuss a little more in depth the situation that we’ve come across while working on this project that’s resulted in Jeff not being able to make the entirety of this journey with us. More than that, though, I want to talk a little more in depth about what I think this film can do, what I want it to accomplish.
This is about adventure, as we’ve said countless times. This is undoubtedly true. Yet, for me, it’s not the sheer wildness of the trip, the unexpectedness of the route that keeps me invested. Really, this has been about finding something I’ve wanted, something I’ve wanted badly, and seizing the right opportunity to make it happen. The trip itself is simply a metaphor, a prime, visceral example of what can be accomplished if you put your mind to a goal; take the time to plan it thoroughly and give everything you have in pursuit of something worthwhile. Make no bones about it; this trip is worthwhile for us. For me. As a person who has spent years with city living stress, worrying constantly about paying my rent, this is necessary. An adventure larger than I would have ever dreamed of doing on my own, almost more to prove to myself that I’m capable of it more than anything else.
That’s what I need. This is the risk I need to take.
The same isn’t necessarily true for everyone. For Jeff, this didn’t seem like a thing he could afford, a thing he could make work while spending most of the year studying for a graduate degree and his summers struggling to afford said graduate degree. The circumstances weren’t ideal.
But god, the circumstances are never ideal. I don’t blame Jeff for his assessment; it’s practical, sensible, and keeps him pushing towards a goal that he has in life, keeps him stable. In many ways I envy him this trajectory. I don’t have it. I know a lot of us don’t. I know the things I love and the things I’m interested in, I have ideas of what I want to do with my life, but none of them will be thrown off if I take a month and do something for myself. At worst they’ll be delayed. By a month. My circumstances aren’t ideal because, like Jeff, I have no money. But maybe mine are more ideal, since I haven’t set myself on any real course. It sounds like I’m aimless, and sure in some ways I am, in some ways I have too many things I’m doing without settling on a single tangible goal. This adventure and the documenting of it will only add to that list. I feel like I’m not alone in this, this way of living, this situation of being. Generational ennui is our age’s curse, and we all struggle against it in our own ways.
I also think it’s important to note that all of this doesn’t mean Jeff won’t still play a significant role in this project. While he may not be making the long haul with us, he’s still lending aid when it comes to logistical planning for the journey. We even still intend to see him on the road, hopefully near Nashville, where he’ll have ridden down on his motorcycle to join us, catch up, and maybe share some tarmac on the way back east and up. He’s still finding an adventure for himself; it’s just a bit of a different one than mine. Maybe that’s okay, maybe that’s not such a bad thing. I do want for people to watch this film and be swept up with revolutionary fervor, to set aside their qualms and go have an adventure, do something they’ve always deep down wanted to do and just haven’t managed to make room for. Maybe, though, it is okay if the thing they’re pushed to do isn’t the same as what I am. We all need different things in life, but I truly do believe that, especially amongst my generation, we need something that breaks monotony, renews us, reminds us that there’s more than simple career struggle and staying safe and content with monotony.
At the end of the day, I would have loved for Jeff to be with us on this journey for the whole time. He’s a good friend, and would have been a great traveling companion. But as I’ve said, our movie isn’t about this trip, not exactly. It’s about looking into your own circumstances and finding the opportunities for adventure hidden within them. Jeff’s managed to find them with his bike, for example, riding his motorcycle to a wedding in the Midwest rather than flying the 800 miles. That’s the sort of thing I hope for everyone, that’s what I hope for this movie to inspire – finding ways to say yes to your opportunities for adventure. They’re not the same for everyone, but just about everyone has them.